Honesty is such a lonely word by My Random Musings (BLW Contributor)




We all talk about how honest we are and how we want people to be honest with us, but in reality it somehow comes down to honesty is not always the best policy.

People constantly question others about why you hurt them or why you are hurt and then you tell them the truth as you see it, but most often that does not go down the right way, because they could not handle the truth. I am no exception to that rule, I like to think that I am absolutely honest and speak my mind (let’s not ask my ex boy friend for confirmation of that) but the truth is I know despite how I look at myself, I tend to stretch the truth sometimes to spare someone the hurt or pain.

Let me digress for a few with background story –  a few days ago a friend who constantly flakes on me did it again, despite assurances after my having told her I don’t spend time with her because of that. Fast forward a few months, she does it again. This time I decide I am done with my friendship and it’s time to sever ties. However she sends me a text asking me if I was upset with her and I replied telling her the truth, which was, that I am frustrated with the constant back and forth with plans and I dislike it. I like to make plans and stick to it. It turns out she did not like my honesty that she did what I believe is what most teenagers probably do, she unfriended me on Facebook.

Fortunately for me, my life does not revolve around FB or the number of friends I have. I use it just to post my photographs and a way to keep in touch with a few friends, therefore it did not bother me. No, let me rephrase that, her un-friending me did not bother me, but her childish behavior of not talking about it bothered me. I believe she did it because she could not handle the truth of what I told her.

I am not trying to get on a pedestal of honesty or morality, because I understand we all have our moments of weakness and make promises we sometimes can’t keep and I have no doubt there are times I have over promised and under-delivered. But for the most part I try not to be that person. I try to do my best to be honest and open, because I have learnt that one lie spirals out of control and it becomes such a big lie that we have dug a hole so deep, we cannot climb out of it.

Well getting back to where I was, I am probably no better than anyone else about handling the truth. Recently someone called me high-strung and I was aghast at that thought and refused to believe it. (In my defense I am not high-strung) If he called me impatient, strong-headed, stubborn, I would have whole heartedly agreed with him.  I don’t know why, somehow high-strung has a negative connotation to it and I had to actually ask a few of my close friends if they agree with this statement.

Fortunately for them or me, they all disagreed with that sentiment, they claim that I am easy-going, but sometimes too energetic,  and that someone who does not know me could construe that as high-strung.  However, they all agreed that when it came to food,  that I could be a tad bit  OCD and obsessive about wanting things to be perfect. It probably is never perfect, but at least I know it is not for the lack of trying on my part.

I constantly claim that I want to hear the truth, but someone tells me the truth as he see’s it and I refuse to accept that it is his idea of the truth about me. While being called high-strung upset me, what upset me more as days went by was that I could not graciously accept his opinion and would have preferred if he had not been honest about his opinion.

We all claim we want to know the truth and that we tell the truth, but somehow most often truth gets soft peddled if the truth involves hurting someone’s feelings. So I ask, is honesty the best policy or do we need to be a bit dishonest to avoid hurting people we care for ?



“You, Me, and The Internet.” – John D. Aguon



By John D. Aguon @lttlgnt

So much has happened.

SO much has happened since my last entry.

I’ve been on crazy whirlwind, riding up and down life’s proverbial roller coaster. I love it though. I owe a lot to the masses. Seeing all of your updates. Sally got a new job. Bob got married.  There are People moving on up, even some of you to the east side. Seriously though, I owe a lot to the lives people broadcast online. For some reason I tune in. I see all of your success whether it is exaggerated or not. It fuels my gas guzzling fire! Well, I’ve been on the opposite side of the spectrum. John can’t afford rent. John needs a job. John could be a massive failure.

It was a dark place.


Very dark and I owe it to the Internet.

What are we doing?  Sometimes I wonder what my life would be without the World Wide Web, constantly updating my every move. Trying to live up to the Facebook standard of living. Don’t get me wrong; I’m the first to admit that I LOVE broadcasting my whereabouts. The Burger joint I claimed to have found. The hike or if you’re going up Runyon, the gradual uphill walk I conquered. You can’t forget the infamous “ I took a picture with a celebrity, and we’re now best friends” Photo.


But, the other day I realized something. I was having just a normal bad day, with a normal headache with a side of normal laziness, when I pulled out my iPhone and started scrolling through my photos. I found a sick picture from a few weeks back, of an awesome time I had with some friends, and of course with a flattering angle (you know high angle make you look skinnier). I filtered the picture, typed in some positive caption and went on to live my normal bad day.

Soon enough.

Blah blah blah, “likes your photo.”

So and so, “likes your photo.”

Finally, I realized. No one REALLY knew how I was living my life. No one knew that I lost my apartment, I lost my job, and I lost my dignity.


Once again, I owe that to the Internet.

But, it’s not all a shit storm. It propelled me to actually living the life I project for everyone to see. I hit the pavement. I got on my feet again and found an incredible apartment and I’m now working for a place where I can say my career can finally grow.

I have to say; there is a light that Facebook, Instagram and other social media sites shines. Seriously though, throughout my life I’ve met some interesting people and rather than drifting apart through the distance and the years, Its pretty awesome to know that there’s a place where I can see little glimpses of your daily lives, triumphs, and families.

I appreciate you all.

I owe it to the Internet.

Check out John’s work @ Vimeo & Youtube

“I”…Inspire- Inspirational People of 2014- Up and Coming Actress Jillian Murray (Interview)




“We never know how high we are Till we are called to rise; And then, if we are true to plan, Our statures touch the skies.”  – Emily Dickinson

I don’t know about you, but in 2014 I want to be successful!

Whether it is in photography, music or writing. I just want to be highly successful. Of course, I want to be successful for the fame and money, but I also want to inspire people to become successful. As an Asian American, growing up in America, there weren’t many role models for me to look up to with the exception of my father and Bruce Lee. I am thankful that I had those two influences in my life because I would have been a lost soul. I want to find other people who can inspire people to achieve great things in their own lives.

BLW is introducing a section about people you may or may not know but they are well-known in their own fields and now they are starting to make noise for the whole world to hear. We decided to start this because we as a society are always looking for heroes or someone to look up to as a role model. Ynfortunately, we sometimes look for it in all the wrong places. So, we decided to dedicate an article about people, who you should inspire to be or are least gain some knowledge about how to be successful just like them. “Alone we fall, but together we stand.”

“I”, Jillian Murray, Inspire



Jillian Leigh Murray is an American actress. She is perhaps best known for her roles as Portlyn on Sonny With a Chance and as Heather in An American Carol. Murray made her film debut in the independent film Deep Toad as Natashia. She was later cast in Fifty Pills as Jayne, followed by Legacy also known as Pretty Little Devils. Her first leading role was The Fun Park. In 2009, Murray portrayed Gwen Adams in the romantic comedy American High School. She later played Heather in An American Carol, Abby Graves in The Graves, and Lex Mitchell in Forget Me Not. Murray starred in a recurring role on the Disney Channel original series Sonny With a Chance, playing Portlyn. She had a role in Cougar Hunting playing the lead Penelope (Lara Flynn Boyle’s daughter), as well as in Wild Things: Foursome playing Brandi Cox. Murray’s face and body were used as the model for the character of Liara T’soni in the Mass Effect franchise of video games. She recently appeared in the premier episode of the 2011 revival of the reality series Fear Factor[2](where she came in second place) In 2012, Murray starred alongside Danny Trejo and Ron Perlman in the action film Bad Ass.


Ryan Fu:   Who Are you?
Jillian Murray:   I’m a storyteller
Ryan Fu:  What are you famous for?


Jillian Murray:     I guess when I did Disney’s Sonny with a Chance; I got on some youngster’s radars. And then I did a known video game called Mass Effect where my face and body was used for the main female so that got the male audience and then I guess some movies like Never Back Down 2 for the rest of them
Ryan Fu:  Do you like being actresses?
Jillian Murray:    No I hate it, why am I here? What am I doing? (Laughing) Of course I enjoy it. I would never do something I wasn’t passionate about.
Ryan Fu:    Why did you decide to go into show business?
Jillian Murray:    I’m so addicted to understanding people, the how’s and why’s. My curiosity lead me to examine characters and I wanted to dive into them. That along with being a pretty fearless person which I guess I wanted to challenge myself and see if I could do it.
Ryan Fu:    Which actor or actresses do you look up to the most?


Jillian Murray:   Meryl Streep is an obvious answer but I adore her. I love Juliette Lewis, Halle Berry and Cate Blanchett too.
Ryan Fu:    Whom were your role models growing up?
Jillian Murray:    This sounds awful, but I didn’t really have any. I was always independent and tried to march to the beat of my own drum. I was careful to not get caught up with idolizing others.
Ryan Fu:   If you weren’t actresses what would you be doing?
Jillian Murray:    I love psychology so maybe something in that world.
Ryan Fu:  What is the best and worst part of your job?
Jillian Murray:    The best part is the constant change and constant challenge but its a difficult profession because you have to be able to handle rejection and disappointments often and you have to also be away from your home and loved ones for very long periods of time, which makes sustaining a relationship much harder.
Ryan Fu:    Is it more important for you to be famous or to be recognized for your work?
Jillian Murray:     My work! But I really haven’t had the opportunity for people to see what I’m capable of yet. When you start out, you take jobs to build your resume and a lot of the times they are not great movies. But they provide a learning experience every time.
Ryan Fu:    What are your thoughts about FAME?
Jillian Murray:    It comes with the territory.


Ryan Fu:    How do you deal or feel about the media, making people famous for doing nothing?
Jillian Murray:    I’m gonna plead the 5th.
Ryan Fu:     What are your thoughts about the MEDIA/ Paparazzi?
Jillian Murray:    I understand it’s their job to get the shots and I understand that the general public is very curious about people’s lives behind the scenes.

'Glee' newcomer Dean Geyer spotted with girlfriend Jillian Murray at The Grove 04

Ryan Fu:    What are your turns you on or off about a person?
Jillian Murray:   Turn ONs – Vulnerability and honesty and someone willing to take risks… its so sexy seeing someone living presently.
Turn OFFs – Selfishness and lying. And someone who is close-minded is a big turnoff.
Ryan Fu:    As a person, is it important to be more beautiful inside or outside?
Jillian Murray:    C’mon, are you serious? I’m sure you already know my answer because of the previous questions but it’s so obviously the outside! (Laughing loudly)    But seriously, I am always looking past the exterior. Whether is beautiful looks, money, or success… those things don’t affect the way I see someone ever. A good soul and a beautiful heart can go the distance.
Ryan Fu:  What are your Goals or Aspirations in 2014?
Jillian Murray:    My goal this year is to really focus on being more present in life and finding a beautiful balance in regards to work and personal life. I’m an extreme person and when I have my eye on something I go all in. So easing into that balance is really important to me.


Ryan Fu:  What makes you so successful?
Jillian Murray:    Well that’s a very relative term. You mean how do I live off this career choice? Well this is the advice I give my friends that are actors “If you don’t take a chance, you won’t have chance” and what I mean is stop playing everything so safe! I like walking into an audition knowing that I will either bomb horribly or do amazing and get called back. I think being mediocre or average or safe is death to an actor in LA. The same goes with life too… I LOVE taking chances… yeah I might get my heart broken or lose my financial stability in the process but at least I’m living life to the fullest and I think that way of life attracts positive things.
Ryan Fu:    What is your Fitness/ Beauty/ Health regimen?

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Jillian Murray:    Well this is all changing. This interview is happening in March. And as of right now I haven’t walked into a gym in over 6 months and I have been eating awfully! So I actually will have a much different answer in a few months. I literally lost so much muscle in the last few months that I really am focused on getting back into shape.
Ryan Fu:    What is you Philosophy in Life/ Business/ Relationships?
Jillian Murray:      Be honest, hardworking, and positive
Ryan Fu:      Why should we keep an eye on you in 2014?
Jillian Murray:    Well this summer my new film CABIN FEVER PATIENT ZERO hits theaters. I have 5 other films that will be coming out directly after that as well.

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